This is a letter to the guys who raped me!

This a letter to the guys who raped me and left me for dead All those years ago


You guys grab me beat me and Rape me. On the way home from school one day.You left me for dead laying in a back yard cover in blood and dirt limp like a rag doll. You knocked my teeth out because I tried to fight back! I woke up in the ICU ward at the hospital. I could not move and hearing my mother crying and upset I could not speak to cry and reach out. You got me pregnant.You ruined my life. I never grew up a normal child like the other 12 yrs and teenagers should. Nothing has changed today in my life! I Live in fear being touched and I wear the scars on my soul and will live with them all my life. I am broken and damaged goods. I live life of loneness and hurt and fear, can`t be in a stable relationships unable to love and feel someone warm gentle touch. When something like sex i should be enjoying like any woman should? I feel pain thinking the rape is happening again. When people find out what happen me they stay away and don`t want to be friends! or act like I have some diseased animal You taken my happiness and dreams and replaced them with PTSD and You guys are happy and enjoying your life to fullest and probably forgot what you did to me? You never been caught by the police.I can close my eyes and still see your faces and I hear the dirty names. You Dirty Japanese whore. You love Fucky Sucky all your kind do you bitch! ETC! Every time I see a woman get hit or see a movie which a woman is attacked and Raped I start to relive the attack all over again Me or no Girl/Woman don`t stand up and jumped up and down and beg for this to happen to them.You think you have power over women You also destroyed my mother life too! She lives with the worry everyday and everytime the phone rings when I am gone. She worries and afraid that she might get that call from the police that I may try something one day to take my life. I am not going to let you have that satisfaction I am going to beat this and hope to see you punished for what you did me and maybe to others? I hope that fate will pay you back for what you done? And I hope your proud of yourself for what you done and if it made you both a real men? Its been many years and its another anniversary of your attack

How Do you Sleep at night? Thanks for putting my life into hell!

Loneness Empty Places keep me from heading somewhere else! Remove me from the dark and give me back which I have lost.

To those who read this. I am sorry I have upset you or shocked you in anyway? I could not hold it in any longer it was killing me inside. I had to let go! If You don`t want to follow me anymore I understand! The song will remain the same like a broken record.
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